Im still here.......................

It feels as though time is starting to race and I am just too far behind to even begin to catch up! My blog says 83 days left and the precious little girl I have always wanted will be here! I cant even pick the color pink I want to paint her room. The love of my life has been great this whole time even when I have insomnia and wake him up just so that I don't have to be alone. I cry but I don't know why even right now the tear are streaming down my face and I cant place a particular reason. Maybe its because i'm lonely and in a new town with no friends but I have my boys and most days thats enough itself. Just sometimes it would be nice to go shopping with someone and have someone to have lunch with other than my husband who likes anything I pick out ;) Well I will try to come back soon :)