Im still here.......................

It feels as though time is starting to race and I am just too far behind to even begin to catch up! My blog says 83 days left and the precious little girl I have always wanted will be here! I cant even pick the color pink I want to paint her room. The love of my life has been great this whole time even when I have insomnia and wake him up just so that I don't have to be alone. I cry but I don't know why even right now the tear are streaming down my face and I cant place a particular reason. Maybe its because i'm lonely and in a new town with no friends but I have my boys and most days thats enough itself. Just sometimes it would be nice to go shopping with someone and have someone to have lunch with other than my husband who likes anything I pick out ;) Well I will try to come back soon :)

Wow I cant wait until October!!!!

I love him!!!

I love him because he makes me see the world from a different point of view. He was kind of staring into space when I asked him what was wrong? He replied "The little thing we saw at the ultrasound its like the baby is building its own support system..............Its a miracle!" I thank God that he sent me you even though some days I want to strangle you..........you are my husband and I love you! ~Jessica

I feel sooooo lucky!

Well today we went to the doctor for an ultrasound and although we wanted to see our little bean all we saw was his/her little house. Which was exciting enough for us I have been wanting to give my husband this gift for so long. I cant wait to find out what it is even though we dont care as long as it is happy and healthy. I love my husband soo much and I am soo happy we can start this new year as a family!